‘Between a Disillusion and Resolution’


My debut solo album ‘Between a Disillusion and Resolution’ is out now!

After spending the last three years writing, recording and painstakingly agonising over the post-production of this record, I am really pleased to be now be able to share it with you.

Here are links to the album:

Spotify Music link
https://open.spotify.com/album/2qB0C1v9vqey8CqMNY3iP2…

Apple Music link: http://itunes.apple.com/album/id/1501313612

The album is also available on many other streaming platforms.

A huge thanks to the following talented people involved with making this record.

Andrew Bishop – Co producer, recording and mixing engineer

Ben Elliott – Bass Guitar

Aled Lloyd – Drums

Jiffy Griffiths – Percussion

Emma Davidson  – Vocals

Darlee Urbiztondo – Artwork

Bethan Miller – Photography

Steve Kitch- Mastering Engineer

Additionally I would like to thank:

Will and Jane Mackie and Rob Reed – For the mentoring and moral support!
George Soriano – For his generosity with additional gear.
My family for their moral support and the help with transport!

The album was written over the course of what was a very interesting period of time for me. As a result, a lot of the album was written in Dubai and subsequently recorded in Wales.

I will be sharing the stories that inspired each of the songs over the coming days.

For those of who do enjoy this record, please feel free to share it with someone else you think will also enjoy it. It would be greatly appreciated.

Stay safe during this strange and unprecedented time,

Ryan

Ryan Mark Elliott – Solo album ‘Between a disillusion and resolution’ – release date 27th March 2020.

After many years of writing and recording, I am proud to be sharing the news with you that I will be releasing my debut solo album on Friday 27th March 2020.

Between a Disillusion and Resolution

1.) Dreams to Ashes

2.) Half Notion

3.) Grey Day

4.) Myopia

5.) The Upside Down

6.) Kaleidoscope

7.) Continents Away (Feat. Emma Davidson)

8.) Anything is Possible

9.) Exiles

After the release of Eden Shadow’s 2016 album ‘Melodies for Maladies’, a totally grand, ambitious and heavy concept album, I wanted to write a collection of more individual songs. Eventually it became clearer that this was a perfect stepping stone to start releasing music under my own name.

My debut record is influenced by a broad range of artists who have and still use the full album as a full artistic statement, including Rush, Steven Wilson, Tool, Kate Bush, David Bowie, King Crimson, Tears for Fears, Bjork and Mew (to mention but a few). Despite releasing singles and being in an increasingly singles driven business, it was my full intention for this to be an album experience from start to finish.

Lyrically, the album explores and tackles many themes that veer between disillusion and resolution including unrest and uncertainty across the globe, identity, mental health, high profile scandals, climate change, family and long distance relationships, and the transformations and revelations of travelling or moving somewhere new.

For now, the album will be released in stream only format, with the plans for a limited physical release at a later date this year.

Anything is Possible Lyric Video

Grey Day Lyric Video

Eden Shadow – Melodies for Maladies 4 year anniversary

Today is the four year anniversary of ‘Melodies for Maladies’. This record was a hugely ambitious undertaking that was physically, emotionally and mentally draining.

The concept of the album as explicitly titled, was about external and internal maladies based around five characters. The characters lead towards themes which explore the media’s weaponisation of reality, predicting the end of the world in order to profiteer from it, a leader’s decision to go into war and the consequences of that, depression, anxiety, and surviving and eventually reviving oneself from tragedy by finding meaning. (Nice and light!)

The result musically is a progressive metal album that is an hour long (including a 23 minute long 2 part piece!) and draws particular influence from King Crimson, Rush, Steven Wilson, Dream Theater and Tool.

The technical and emotional demands of this record made me feel at times like I would never complete it. Four years on, I’m glad to say it’s been listened to and I’ve sold CDs around the world and am grateful to everyone who has given it a spin. The collaboration of hugely talented people meant that this record was possible so it’s worth listing them and expressing my gratitude here.

Alex Broben – Bass guitar

Aled Lloyd – Drums Andrew Bishop – Engineer/Co-Producer

Emma Davidson – Additional vocals

Theo Travis – Soprano Saxophone and Flute solos in Introspect Part 2

Stephen Preston – Piano solo on Introspect part 2

Rob Kidd – Mixing

Mike Hillier – Mastering

Colin Elgie – Artwork

Dale Johnson – Album layout and design

Bethan Miller – Photography

If you’ve yet to come across this album and grande concept progressive metal is your thing then ‘melodies for maladies’ was made for you. I also have physical CDs available to order on Bandcamp and do enjoy a walk to the post office to send them off.

Link to Bandcamp page: https://edenshadow.bandcamp.com/album/melodies-for-maladiesYou can

listen to the album here:

https://open.spotify.com/album/1rz6n2TL2XuJvnxbvGrpuZ…

https://music.apple.com/gb/artist/eden-shadow/524272988

Exiles – Drum Recording Behind the scenes

Here is a video of Aled performing drums for the final take for ‘Exiles’. The last song from my debut album ‘Between a Disillusion and Resolution’.

I can ask a lot of a drummer from a technical point of view and whilst Aled nails that aspect for me, his full sense of musicality is on full display with this particular track.

You can hear the rest of the album on Spotify, Apple and other streaming services.

Behind the songs – Track 2 – Half Notion

Half Notion was written back in 2014/2015 not long after I had left university.

The lyrics were amongst the easiest for me to write and were inspired by a quote that just had so much relatable truth in it, it stopped me in my tracks.

I always
say, when you’re young and
unsuccessful, you don’t have the money,

and if you’re not careful, when you’re
old and successful, you don’t have the
passion. To be put in either of those two
positions is a tragedy. I think one of the
toughest times in any man’s life is his
twenties, because in your twenties
you’re fiercely screaming who you are,
but you have only half a notion of who
you are. Then as you grow older, you
whisper who you are, but people are
closer to you, and they listen. By that
time, you have half a notion, a quarter of
a notion, of who you are. I think the
tragedy is when you finally have all the
people that you need surrounding you,
and you have nothing left to say.”

This quote is from acclaimed filmmaker Guillermo Del Toro from the beautiful coffee table book ‘Cabinet of Curiosities’ and this is just one example of the wisdom this gentleman shares in his work. Watch a live interview of him talk about one of his latest masterpieces, ‘The Shape of Water’ and he will put a smile on your face!

Admittedly, I was in a position when I left university and finished education with flying colours yet for the first time in my life, I had no clear sense of direction of how to go about doing things. Not to say I did not have a vision, I am extraordinary lucky to have found something that I have been passionate about since the age of 8 but my ambitions lacked the resources and I felt pretty lost. I know for a fact that plenty of people end up in that boat, probably much more so than those that find their feet straight away.

As I had done during school and university, I wanted to prove myself in the real world as a person and musician, with no real idea as to how to that exactly and subsequently, my perception of the way things were going were that it was all painfully slow and extremely frustrating, so much to the point it was anxiety inducing.

The record that I had in production during this time was Eden Shadow ‘Melodies for Maladies’ but there were so many hurdles involved in making this stupidly ambitious record, it came to a point where I thought I was never going to be able to release another album ever again.

I wrote Half Notion to express that frustration, but at the same time I was looking for the wisdom amidst it all and in retrospect, it was simpler than my emotions at the time made it out to be.

I was in my early twenties and you know absolutely sod all in your early twenties!

I was caught up in half notions.

‘Half Notion’ is about accepting the fact that it is okay to only have a fraction of a notion about who you are, and learning to temper that alongside your ambitions, passion and desire for success.

It’s easier said than done, especially in a world where the media obsessed with age, people lie about being younger and youth talent in the industry is propelled at such a speed that they end falling as fast as they rise (with sometimes devastating consequences). As Del Toro says, success has it’s own downfalls as well and learning to love the journey is key, and making music as a solo artist and with Kinky Wizzards has never been more positive. I look forward to a time when we can take it all live again.

I still only have a half notion.

To finish, here is another quote from Del Toro about the same topic:

“The most desperate time is when you’re in your 20s,” said del Toro. “You feel like you’re too late, that you’ve wasted your life. Then when you’re 30 you realize, ‘No, I was just obscenely young, and it was the best time ever: anything was possible!

Behind the songs – Track 1 – Dreams to Ashes

In the coming weeks, I will be sharing the stories behind the songs from my debut album.

In the video below, I discuss the opening song ‘Dreams to Ashes’ sharing my thoughts on what inspired the music and the lyrics.

Listen to the song on Spotify

Dreams to Ashes Artwork and alternates by Darlee Urbiztondo

‘Between a Disillusion and Resolution’ on Bandcamp

My album is now available to stream and buy on Bandcamp.

Whilst streaming is the norm, Bandcamp is by far the most effective way for me to make back money I spend on making a record so support through this medium is always greatly appreciated!

Whilst physical copies are currently in medium term planning, anyone who purchases a digital copy via Bandcamp, will be noted down for a discount for future physical releases.

In addition to the album, you will also have in your download package, all of the artwork as well as photos taken from the studio session.

My top podcasts – A remedy for self isolation.

Self isolation is becoming a situation that more and more people find themselves committing to. With that, there is the challenge of overcoming the pitfalls involved in this process, namely trying to resist climbing up the walls!

One of the best things I do on a now routine basis to pass the time when I am on my own is listen to podcasts.

Podcasts are becoming an increasingly popular media platform and I’m glad that this is so: because podcasts offer lots of opportunities for many beneficial experiences, namely:

1.) An opportunity to learn something new

2.) An opportunity to find out more about interesting people with interesting stories.

3.) It makes you a better listener. It increases your engagement in discussions.

4.) They encourage you to try something new and explore your own ideas.

5.) Keep up to date with current affairs and developments.

At a time when self isolation is becoming a reality, I thought I’d share some of my favourite podcasts. I hope it gives you an opportunity to find something that interests you and you can engage with over the coming weeks.

Happy listening!

Akimbo – Seth Godin

Link – https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/akimbo-a-podcast-from-seth-godin/id1345042626

Topics – Culture, Business and Marketing

I’ve been following Seth Godin since my university days. He is an extraordinary writer with a fascinating philosophy of business and marketing.

It’s a heartwarming, empathetic and optimistic podcast to listen to and it’s an easily digestible average run time of 25 minutes.

If you are interesting in doing better work and levelling up, this podcast is for you.

The Bob Lefsetz Podcast

Topics – The music industry, Culture

Link – https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/the-bob-lefsetz-podcast/id1316200737

If you are in the Music Industry, you really should know who Bob is. His weekly letter is read by tens of thousands, many of which are some of the most well known people in the business.

He’s opinionated, fiercely honest and that is a breath of fresh air in an industry that seemingly has plenty of nonsense.

On his podcast, Bob interviews a wide range of musicians, managers, engineers, CEOs and beyond. Some of the stories are incredibly funny and remarkable.

As a starting point, his conversations with Canadian manager Jake Gold (The tragically hip) are incredibly useful for anonymous artists such as myself.

Kermode on Film

Topics – Film and Cinema

Link – https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/kermode-on-film/id1436700945

Mark Kermode is one of my go to people for reviews and discussions about film and cinema and as a result I have discovered a lot of films I adore.

His regular conversations with Film reviewer Jack Howard offer a funny almost father and son dynamic and there are some great episodes where they share their opinions, debate and amusingly throw digs at one another.

There are also some live shows with great interviews with actors/actresses and directors as well.

Song Exploder

Topic – Songwriting and production

Link – https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/song-exploder/id788236947

This gem of a podcast is wonderfully insightful and you get a glimpse into the minds of many brilliant music artists.

The premise is simple. An artist unpacks the songwriting approach and explains the demo process as well as demonstrating different parts of their songs including sounds deep in the mix that you wouldn’t always expect.

Other noteworthy podcasts I listen to –

James O’Brien – Full Disclosure

Tifo Football podcast

The Intelligence by The Economist

If there are any podcasts you highly recommend, feel free to suggest them in the comment section below.

Myopia

Inspiration for the song

The next song to be released from my upcoming solo album is ‘Myopia’.

This is the darkest and heaviest track on the album. I wanted to write a song that captured the sense of disorientation I have experienced when following the news in the latter stages of the last decade. A lot of situations surrounding this may have occurred as a result of short sightedness and decision making based on the short term as opposed to the long term.

All the while there is the ever present and existential threat of climate change and the warnings from experts of the short amount of time we have left to do something about it.

Lyrics

There are some out there who would let the world burn 

If it’s for profit or self gain 

There are some who would let their pride get in the way

and steer us all off the rails 

There are some who will use their position of power

To exploit those around them 

There are some who lack so much compassion 

to question what virtue remains 

This is our world 

Our fragile world 

Before the wildfire spreads 

And the storms come raging in

Before our oceans drown in plastic 

Before our children suffer 

Let us look beyond our myopia 

Credits

RME – Guitars, Vocals, Moog, Keyboards

Emma Davidson – Backing Vocals

Ben Elliott – Bass Guitar

Aled Lloyd – Drums

Produced by RME and Andrew Bishop

Recording and Mixing Engineer – Andrew Bishop

Mastering Engineer – Steve Kitch

Artwork – Darlee Urbiztondo